Blessings Come through raindrops

So this past weekend seemed to be mixes emotions. I was so excited about Fathers Day, had all the plans laid out, got the gifts... Enjoyed days outside, running around with my children. Then came Thursday night, I started noticing emotional changes. Anger, crying, depression and over all failure feeling. I know it came from PMS but I've never had such issues with PMS til about a couple of months ago. But I tried pushing through it all with a smile. Hiding the emotion that came along. I think I spent most of Friday crying over news reports, the way my children would do something, if someone asked if I was Ok... You named it I cried. Then Saturday I finally opened up on Facebook about my emotions to some ladies who went above and beyond to help me. I simply asked

"Why is this happening and how do I over come?"

   A flood of prayers came in, answers came in left and right... And while I was at the beach enjoying time with family riding bikes, and watching my 2 beautiful children play in sand, I felt the weight of anger and emotions left. I felt like God said "Just open up and hear my answer" and I did. I couldn't believe it...

“The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.” —James 5:16, NIV

   I sat awhile in prayer and this song came on that I have heard many times when I've struggled in the past. And it seems to show me, that yes life is NOT perfect and it is NOT going to be easy. But sometimes we need hard times to show us BLESSINGS.

BLESSINGS by Laura Story
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

CHORUS:
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel you near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if each promise from Your Word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

CHORUS

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win, we know
That pain reminds this hearts,
That this is not, this is not our home…..

CHORUS

What if my greatest disappointments,
Or the aching of this life,
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy.
What if trials of this life,
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise?

I have sat and talked with my husband and I am making an appointment to see my midwife to have my levels checked out and making a decision from there. I am blessed to see supportive women out there! Thank you to all my ladies out there who helped me in my time of need! You all are amazing and I am blessed to have you in my life!